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Love is complex
It can bring happiness.
Or it can bring heartache
never knowing what it will bring
Take a leap and find out
No matter what, you are stronger than you think.
So keep going, even if it’s hard.
One day you’ll look back and smile,
Knowing you tried, and loved, and lived.
I need the drive to enrich my life,
To seek out the joy amidst the strife.
With every step, I’ll rise and grow,
Embracing the challenges, letting them flow.
I need to dodge the obstacles, fierce and tall,
With courage in heart, I’ll conquer them all.
Each hurdle I face, a lesson to learn,
A fire in my spirit, forever will burn.
The path may be winding, the journey unclear,
But with hope as my compass, I’ll move without fear.
For every setback is merely a chance,
A rhythm in life, a beautiful dance.
So I’ll forge ahead, with dreams in my sight,
With strength as my armor, I’ll fight for the light.
In the tapestry woven with colors so bright,
I need the drive—for it fuels my flight.
Before the storm, a warning: light grows sharp and thin,
A whisper at the temples, an ache beneath the skin.
The world begins to shimmer, colors blur and bend—
A silent drum is beating, sending its signals.
During comes the pounding, relentless, and severe,
A throb behind the eyelids, the sound you cannot hear.
Each movement sparks a ripple, each thought is met with pain,
You close your eyes and wonder if you’ll ever feel the same.
Afterwards, the silence—soft, a gentle, fragile peace,
The world returns in fragments; the pulsing finally ceased.
You’re weary as a river that’s finally met the sea,
Grateful for the quiet and the hope of being free.
I am not a charity case
where you can do what you please with.
See me as my own person
who has feelings and thoughts of my own.
I have dreams that I cherish,
And hopes that ignite my soul,
Respect my journey, my choices,
For I am striving to be whole.
Promises made,
yet never fulfilled,
I find myself asking,
“Why do I still care?”
Is my yearning for love,
for acceptance,
so deep,
so desperate?
Summer
Hot days are here
Swimming, plans, vacations
Time to rest and be with others
Fun times
Some days, I can brush my thoughts aside,
But others, they linger, refusing to hide.
Negative whispers echo, a relentless refrain,
Looping through my mind like a relentless chain.
I'm not good enough for anyone to truly like me.
People only stick around for what they can gain from me.
I'm too boring; that's why friends drift away.
I have to change who I am to be liked.
I always end up disappointed by broken promises.
My need for acceptance is pathetic.
No one really understands or sees the real me.
I don't deserve love or happiness.
I fail to meet the expectations of those around me.
I'll always be alone and unimportant.
I'll never find someone who truly values me.
I will always struggle to connect with others.
My efforts never lead to any meaningful relationships.
I am constantly let down by others.
I am not worthy of friendship or love.
Most days, I know that this is not true,
But at times, it is hard to fight the thoughts,
And then I start to believe them.
Therapy has been my guiding light;
I’ve learned skills to cope and fight.
Though they help me more often than not,
Negative thoughts still creep in and cloud my thoughts.
Friends and family lend a hand,
Yet only a few truly understand.
Their efforts, though kind, sometimes fall short,
More hindrance than help in the emotional sport.
Here I stand, pushing through,
Some days weigh heavy, it’s true.
In the battle with my mind,
I fight hard, but peace is hard to find.
Yet I promise I will rise anew,
Just a little time, and I’ll break through.
Though the struggle might seem long,
I’ll find my strength and carry on.
A light blue sky with clouds floating by.
Wondering where they might go.
Drifting softly, whispering dreams.
The memories of time spent together.
will always warm my heart
How I miss those days
where we would spend hours doing nothing
But those are gone
The echoes of laughter linger still,
In moments that time cannot fulfill.
Chasing shadows beneath the stars,
Dreaming of futures, unmarked by scars.
Though seasons have changed and paths diverged,
In the tapestry of life, our memories surged.
I carry your smile, a beacon of light,
Guiding me gently through the darkest of nights.
So here’s to the days, both joyful and sweet,
To the warmth of your presence, each moment a treat.
Though distance may grow and life pull us apart,
You’ll always be cherished, forever in my heart.
The silence in your words
tells me more than you can ever say.
In the quiet depths, emotions swirl,
A hidden truth beneath the fray.
Love is complex
It can bring happiness.
Or it can bring heartache
never knowing what it will bring
Take a leap and find out
No matter what, you are stronger than you think.
So keep going, even if it’s hard.
One day you’ll look back and smile,
Knowing you tried, and loved, and lived.
Before the storm, a warning: light grows sharp and thin,
A whisper at the temples, an ache beneath the skin.
The world begins to shimmer, colors blur and bend—
A silent drum is beating, sending its signals.
During comes the pounding, relentless, and severe,
A throb behind the eyelids, the sound you cannot hear.
Each movement sparks a ripple, each thought is met with pain,
You close your eyes and wonder if you’ll ever feel the same.
Afterwards, the silence—soft, a gentle, fragile peace,
The world returns in fragments; the pulsing finally ceased.
You’re weary as a river that’s finally met the sea,
Grateful for the quiet and the hope of being free.
In your own time
You will blossom
to be an amazing person
You were meant to be
In the quiet moments,
Find strength within,
Embrace the journey,
Let your story begin.
Sleep is not my friend
For I lay awake with many thoughts in my head
Strategies taught do not work
Sleep is needed, but I can’t obtain it.
I am not a charity case
where you can do what you please with.
See me as my own person
who has feelings and thoughts of my own.
I have dreams that I cherish,
And hopes that ignite my soul,
Respect my journey, my choices,
For I am striving to be whole.